A new wagon to fall off .. hopefully not!

.. so my weight has ballooned to an uncomfortable (for me) level .. "read that as went to try clothes on for packing to go away and they were getting more than a wee bit tight :-(" .. and so I've began using WW online Propoints again ..

This week was pretty good considering we've been on the Bach most of the week and it was only today that there was a bit of a blowout and that was definitely stress related ... Urgggh.





So starting weight as at Mon 10/1 was 80.3kg and ultimate goal is 65kg .. but I know I can get to 67kg.
I'm breaking it down in to 5kg goals .. and so the first is 75kg..

I'm turning 40 on Sunday .. so my year goal is to get healthy again and get my anxiety/depression under control more.
Why have I ballooned do I think .. Depression.. Antidepressants .. Emotional eating .. and an "oh well who really cares" attitude ..
.. but that's changing this week !!
So roll .. a healthier me this year .. with more exercise .. positive thinking .. and in the end a smaller me :-)

The black dog ....

... sinking ..

 

The laws that govern the black dog

a) it is lazy, it hates exercise.

b) it feeds on negative emotion.

c) it lies, steals, distorts and drains.

d) it relies on the labels from other people to quantify what you have.

e) it loves it when you give it your full attention and energy.

f) it will always show you your past, and hide your future

g) it hides your true self from you

The Hole

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost ... I am helpless...
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in this same place.
But it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I still fall in... it's a habit...
But my eyes are open.
I see it is there.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down a different street.

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