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Thursday, September 30, 2010

This month .. in pics

Man I've been so slack with posting .. so here's a super lazy post .. ;-p

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There's a bull in the garden what am I gonna do ..

there's a bull in the garden what am I gonna do ..

I'm gonna watch that bull that's what I'm gonna do ..

I'm gonna watch that bull ;-p

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Three lambs - Rainbow Dash - Abbie's, Rocket - Mike's and Dan C - Cam's

.. 2 ewes and one ram .. been so sickly .. driving me bonkers .. we've always had rams .. ewe's are not as hardy it seems ..

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Mike being his usual nutty self ;-p

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Magnolia buds in the garden ..

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Mike going off to "work"

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Nana's Internment


On Sunday 26th September 1.30pm, we had the internment of Nana's ashes at Awanui Cemetery ..

It was a really lovely day - very healing ..

I did a reading .. Jeff - Elsie's partner (for mum) read the "roses" poem that was in Nana's funeral service sheet .. and Sonje read a beautiful poem from a card she gave to Nana

.. then as Uncle Alan and Uncle Les lowered the ashes in Stefhan (Sonje's son) played the start of Stairway to Heaven on his guitar

.. then we placed flowers in and around the ashes .. and then they both then filled it in .. then we had a moments silence while Stefhan played his guitar

.. was really lovely .. then we all went back to Mum's for afternoon tea

.. was a really nice day :-) .. lots of tears .. but good for the soul :-)

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the beautiful flowers outside Mum and Dad's house

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the spread for afternoon tea

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My cool Pop

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..photos from during the week ..

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Coco Pops milkshakes for breakfast ..

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Miss with Candi (a doll Nana found and gave her)

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Miss found some new glasses ..

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Colouring fun on a wet day ..

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Cheeky Miss ..

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Surely they aren't related

.. this is what I saw when I got up this morning .. Dad's worker ;-p

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Earthquake in Christchurch

From Wikipaedia:

The 2010 Canterbury earthquake (also known as the Darfield earthquake and the Christchurch earthquake) was a 7.1 magnitude earthquake, which struck the South Island of New Zealand at 4:35 am on 4 September 2010 local time. It caused widespread damage and several power outages, particularly in the city of Christchurch. Two residents were seriously injured, one by a falling chimney and a second by flying glass.One person died of a heart attack suffered during the quake.

The earthquake's epicentre was 40 kilometres (25 mi) west of Christchurch, near the town of Darfield. The hypocentre was at a shallow depth of 10 km. A foreshock of roughly magnitude 5.8 hit five seconds before the main quake, and strong aftershocks have been reported, up to magnitude 5.4.The initial quake lasted about 40 seconds, and was felt widely across the South Island, and in the North Island as far north as New Plymouth.

The Civil Defence declared a state of emergency for Christchurch and Selwyn District, while Selwyn District, Waimakariri and Timaru activated their emergency operation centres. A curfew was established in Christchurch Central City from 7:00 pm to 7:00 am in response to the earthquake.

Effects outside Christchurch

The quake's epicentre was around Darfield, around 40 kilometres (25 mi) from Christchurch. Four metres (13 ft) of sideways movement has been measured between the two sides of the previously unknown fault.

A 5 km (3.1 mi) section of rail track was damaged near Kaiapoi and there was lesser track damage at Rolleston and near Belfast. As a precaution, state rail operator KiwiRail shut down the entire South Island rail network after the earthquake, halting some 15 trains. After inspection, services south of Dunedin and north of Kaikoura recommenced at 10:30 am. The Main South Line, linking Christchurch with Dunedin, was given the all-clear and reopened just after 6:00 pm to allow emergency aid to be railed into Christchurch.

The quake caused damage to historic buildings in Lyttelton, Christchurch's port town, including cracks in a church and the destruction of parts of a hotel.

It's just surreal an unbelievable the extent of damage

Thank goodness that there (at this stage) seems to be only 2 people seriously hurt.

The horrible thing is they are still having after shocks which are keeping them on edge - recent Earthquakes

Here are some photos of some of the devastation:

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There are some more unbelievable photos here: Dominion Post photos of earthquake

A lady on a parenting board I visit share her experience:

The worst part of it (one the shaking had stopped) was waiting it out in the pitch black for daybreak. We had the four of us in bed together and everytime there was another shake we all grabbed hold each other. DS2 was shaking constantly (obviously shocked) and no matter how tightly I held him he was still making the bed shake. We've got drawer handles that hang and everytime there was an aftershock they started clattering like some strange demonic musical instrument.

A friend of ours is a volunteer fireman and his wife dropped him at the station straight after and then she spent the next hour or so picking up people wandering the streets and dropping them off with family. It seems that a few of the elderly were wanting to be with family so decided to walk rather than spending then next few hours terrified and alone.

It was a huge relief when it finally lightened up, we only had minimal damage, a few broken glasses and a flood in the toilet where it overflowed, once DH worked sorted it out he went to his SILs to see how they fared. All of our friends sort of rallied together and the pregnant and BFing mums hung out at one house with the children while everyone else whet around the area checking on others and helping where needed. They spent a fair few hours at the pub and bottle store as there was broken glass everywhere. It was nice to see that people seemed to group together and were pooling together resources to ensure everyone was fed and watered. There were plenty of BBQed sausages and bacon butties eaten yesterday.

Even last night we all had dinner together before returning to our own homes although some people stayed over, especially those who live alone. It was the worst experience of my life but I could not imagine the terror of having to go through that without another soul in the house.

I am so very thankful of what we've got, a house that is standing, a fire for warmth, power and water and best of all my family are safe. I feel strangly contented, in no hurry for anything just happy to enjoy what today brings (minus the aftershocks of course). I also find myself on the verge of tears quite often, there is no apparent trigger for this, just a really somber feeling comes over me but still so happy to be here!

What causes the Earthquakes in New Zealand is fully explained here: GNS Science 

New Zealand is located on the boundary between two of the Earth's great tectonic plates - the Australian and the Pacific. Broadly speaking, the Australian plate is heading north while the Pacific plate is heading west. The combination of these motions means that the Pacific plate, which includes much of the South Island, is moving relative to the Australian plate at a rate of about 40 millimetres each year in a southwesterly direction. So Christchurch is moving away from Auckland about 4 metres every century.

It is the motion between these two plates, and the deformation that occurs in the boundary zone between the plates, that has given rise to much of New Zealand's geology as we see it today. It is also the fundamental cause of the earthquakes and volcanic eruptions that are such important natural features of New Zealand. The deformation and squashing caused by the collision of the two great plates has caused mountain ranges to rise throughout the country. Some of these are still rising, and the interplay between the tectonic forces pushing the mountains up and gravity trying to pull them down means that landslides are a common occurrence over much of New Zealand.

The plate boundary zone in New Zealand

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Tectonic plates behave like rigid shells that slide over the surface of a sphere. The biggest plate, the Pacific, is more than 10,000 km across. The plate boundary zones - the zones of interaction between adjacent plates where they collide, pull apart or slide past each other - may be anything from a few kilometres to a few hundred kilometres wide. Almost all of New Zealand is in the deforming plate boundary zone.

Only Northland is fully on the Australian plate, and only offshore islands like Chatham Island and Campbell Island are fully on the Pacific plate.

Large earthquakes are the most obvious sign of the deformation between the two plates.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

A new song to like :-)





"I Don't Want To Be" - Gavin DeGraw
I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
[Chorus:]
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!
[Chorus]
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
[Chorus]
I don't want to be [x4]

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Pencil and ink drawings ..

My sister had these pictures done by this lady ..http://purplevibrations.blogspot.com/

The first picture is a artists impression of Mum and Dad's wedding photo - we gave this to them for their 40th wedding anniversary.

This is what she wrote on her blog

"This piece is a second commission for a lady who is celebrating her parent's wedding anniversary. I didn't want it to look just like a photo so have incorporated the ink to give it that personalised 'Sarah' touch. Working on such a small scale was a little intense at times but altogether good fun and I'm very pleased with the result."

This is the present that my sister gave her son for his birthday .. it has such a great likeness to him .. seeing this picture is what made us decide to have Mum and Dad's done ..


This is what she wrote about it -

"Being asked to do a piece of artwork to mark an occasion is always special. When I was approached to produce a birthday present for a boy turning seventeen, I accepted the challenge. Fortunately, the recipient was a keen guitarist so the subject matter was simple. I decided to give the drawing a serious rather than comical tone which was in keeping with his passion, and chose pencil and ink to add an element of simplicity. By using pencil on the hands and face, I was able to capture a life-like quality. Sometimes experimenting is the only way. Both Mum and Son were pleased with the final results. "

They are both pretty good huh?

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Amazing ....

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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

RIP Ellie

So so sad ..

Ellie lost her battle with Leukaemia last night ..

The only comfort is that she is no longer suffering ..

T & L have been through so much with her .. but still 6 is far too young to die! (She would have turned 7 in Sept)

Her brain injury from the infection may have made it hard for her to communicate but she sure fought and made sure she was able to be understood ..

Then for the Leukaemia to come back after she was in remission for those few months is just so cruel ..

Words can't convey how sad I feel .. and it's hard not to compare with Cam ..

The funeral is on Friday ..

Sunday, June 13, 2010

More interesting stuff ..

Ten Steps to Self-Confidence
By Stacey Chillemi

Self-confidence is like being rich - it is something we think everyone else is but us. Yet feeling insecure about ourselves is perhaps the most common problem we face. 

“Self-confidence is like being rich - it is something we think everyone else is but us. Yet feeling insecure about ourselves is perhaps the most common problem we face.”
 
Self-confidence-like being rich - it is something we think everyone else is but us. Yet feeling insecure about ourselves is perhaps the most common problems of humanity. The majority of people in society think, "You have to be born with it." This is not true. You can learn how to be confident, just like learning how to cook or drive a car.

Self-confidence all boils down to how we feel about ourselves. Our self-confidence begins to develop from the moment we are born. Many components affect the development of our self-esteem, for example - how we are raised, how people talk to us and things we experience during our lifetime. Many of us tend to judge how well we our doing in life by what society thinks it is right or what the people who center our life think.

We all have standards and expectations that we all tend to try to live up too. If we do not meet up to our standards, which most of us do not, our self-confidence begins to slowly decline. Many of us try to have unrealistic standards that we try to live up too and we tend to lose sight of the fact that we cannot be perfect.

We need to accept ourselves, love ourselves and be happy with who we are as people. We were valued for just being people, for just being in this world. We often believe we must continually try to prove to other people that we are worthy of them or on the same level as them. We often spend too much time doing that and we lose sight of the fact that we are fine just the way we are and that the only person that needs to be happy with them is themselves even though we are not perfect people.

In order to gain self-confidence you need to believe in yourself. If you believe in yourself then you can succeed in anything you put your mind to. You may not succeed the first time you try, but you have to keep trying until you do succeed. Quick success does not exist in our society. Achievements only come to those who strive hard to get them. You get nowhere in life if you do not push yourself. You need to create a lifestyle that is right for you and nobody else. Do not settle for anyone else's lifestyle or for a lifestyle that is beneath your standards.



 
My "10 step plan" to increasing confidence:
 
 
1.        Begin a journal. Ask yourself what is making you feel like you cannot get to the point in life you want to reach. Write any thoughts that come to mine. Also, write down what self-confidence means to you.
 
 
2.        Remember the past is over; you can only change the future.
Write down 10 positive things about yourself. Go through your journal and look at all the positive things about yourself. Concentrate on your strengths. These are the reasons you should love yourself and have high self-esteem and self-confidence in yourself. Give yourself credit for everything positive you have written about yourself. Remember, you are somebody special.
 
3.        Accept yourself and learn to love yourself for whom you are a person.Everyone has his or her own unique qualities and characteristics. We are all born differently for a reason. Do not compare yourself to others.
 
4.        Understand yourself mentally, physically and spiritually.
 
  • Take some time to relax by yourself in a quiet room...
  • Rest on your back with head and neck comfortably supported.
  • Rest hands on upper abdomen, close your eyes and settle in a comfortable position.
  • Breathe slowly, deeply and rhythmically.
  • Inhalation should be slow, unforced and unhurried.
  • Silently count to four, five or six, whatever feels right for you.
  • When inhalation is complete, slowly inhale through the nose. Count this breathing out, as when breathing in.
  • The exhalation should take as long as the inhalation. There should be no sense of strain. If initially, you feel you have breathed your fullest at a count of three, which is all right.
  • Try gradually to slow down the rhythm until a slow count of five or six is possible, with a pause of two or three between in and out breathing.
5.        Be ready. Self-confidence comes a lot easier to the person who is sure their ready.
 
6.        Strengthen your inner self. Write down in your journal what you will be able to do once you acquire the confidence you need.
 
7.        Begin changing what you do not like about yourself. Confidence comes from within. You need to concentrate on the positive things about yourself.
 
8.        Notice the change in our self-esteem and self-confidence. Reward yourself each time you do something that makes you feel proud...go out some place or take it easy for the day.
 
9.        Learn how to give and take. Confidence is being able to find a balance between giving help to people and excepting when we need help.
 
10.      Have a tremendous amount of pride in yourself. Remember, you are number one!

Interesting concept ..

The Seven Day Mental Diet
How to change your life (and the world) in a week

by Emmet Fox

The subject of diet is one of the foremost topics of the present day in public interest. Newspapers and magazines teem with articles on the subject. The counters of the bookshops are filled with volumes unfolding the mysteries of proteins, starches, vitamins, and so forth. just now the whole world is food-conscious. Experts on the subject are saying that physically you become the thing that you eat that your whole body is really composed of the food that you have eaten in the past. What you eat today, they say, will be in your bloodstream after the lapse of so many hours, and it is your blood-stream that builds all the tissues composing your body -and there you are.

Of course, no sensible person has any quarrel with all this. It is perfectly true, as far as it goes, and the only surprising thing is that it has taken the world so long to find it out; but in this pamphlet I am going to deal with the subject of dieting at a level that is infinitely more profound and far reaching in its effects. I refer of course to mental dieting.

The most important of all factors in your life is the mental diet on which you live. It is the food which you furnish to your mind that determines the whole character of your life. It is the thoughts you allow yourself to think, the subjects that you allow your mind to dwell upon, which make you and your surroundings what they are. As they days, so shall they strength be. Everything in your life today the state of your body, whether healthy or sick, the state of your fortune, whether prosperous or impoverished, the state of your home, whether happy or the reverse, the present condition of every phase of your life in fact-is entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which you have entertained in the past, by the habitual tone of your past thinking. And the condition of your life tomorrow, and next week, and next year, will be entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which you choose to entertain from now onwards.

In other words, you choose your life, that is to say, you choose all the conditions of your life, when you choose the thoughts upon which you allow your mind to dwell. Thought is the real causative force in life, and there is no other. You cannot have one kind of mind and another kind of environment. This means that you cannot change your environment while leaving your mind unchanged, nor-and this is the supreme key to life and the reason for this pamphlet -can you change your mind without your environment changing too.

This then is the real key to life: if you change your mind your conditions must change too- your body must change, your daily work or other activities must change; your home must change; the color-tone of your whole life must change-for whether you be habitually happy and cheerful, or low-spirited and fearful, depends entirely on the quality of the mental food upon which you diet yourself.

Please be very clear about this. If you change your mind your conditions must change too. We are transformed by the renewing of our minds. So now you will see that your mental diet is really the most important thing in your whole life.

This may be called the Great Cosmic Law, and its truth is seen to be perfectly obvious when once it is clearly stated in this way. In fact, I do not know of any thoughtful person who denies its essential truth. The practical difficulty in applying it, however, arises from the fact that our thoughts are so close to us that it is difficult, without a little practice, to stand back as it were and look at them objectively.

Yet that is just what you must learn to do. You must train yourself to choose the subject of your thinking at any given time, and also to choose the emotional tone, or what we call the mood that colors it. Yes, you can choose your moods. Indeed, if you could not you would have no real control over your life at all. Moods habitually entertained produce the characteristic disposition of the person concerned, and it is his disposition that finally makes or mars a person's happiness.

You cannot be healthy; you cannot be happy; you cannot be prosperous; if you have a bad disposition. If you are sulky, or surly, or cynical, or depressed, or superior, or frightened half out of your wits, your life cannot possibly be worth living. Unless you are determined to cultivate a good disposition, you may as well give up all hope of getting anything worth while out of life, and it is kinder to tell you very plainly that this is the case.

If you are not determined to start in now and carefully select all day the kind of thoughts that you are going to think, you may as well give up all hope of shaping your life into the kind of thing that you want it to be, because this is the only way.

In short, if you want to make your life happy and worth while, which is what God wishes you to make it, you must begin immediately to train yourself in the habit of thought selection and thought control. This will be exceedingly difficult for the first few days, but if you persevere you will find that it will become rapidly easier, and it is actually the most interesting experiment that you could possibly make. In fact, this thought control is the most thrillingly interesting hobby that anyone could take up. You will be amazed at the interesting things that you will learn about yourself, and you will get results almost from the beginning.

Now many people knowing this truth, make sporadic efforts from time to time to control their thoughts, but the thought stream being so close) as I have pointed outs and the impacts from outside so constant and varied, they do not make very much progress. That is not the way to work. Your only chance is definitely to form a new habit of thought which will carry you through when you are preoccupied or off your guard as well as when you are consciously attending to the business. This new thought habit must be definitely acquired, and the foundation of it can be laid within a few days, and the way to do it is this: Make up your mind to devote one week solely to the task of building a new habit of thought, and during that week let everything in life be unimportant as compared with that. If you will do so, then that week will be the most significant week in your whole life. It will literally be the turning point for you. If you will do so, it is safe to say that your whole life will change for the better. In fact, nothing can possibly remain the same. This does not simply mean that you will be able to face your present difficulties in a better spirit; it means that the difficulties will go. This is the scientific way to Alter Your Life, and being in accordance with the Great Law it cannot fail. Now do you realize that by working in this way you do not have to change conditions? What happens is that you apply the Law, and then the conditions change spontaneously. You cannot change conditions directly you have often tried to do so and failed but go on the seven day mental diet and conditions must change for you.

This then is your prescription. For seven days you must not allow yourself to dwell for a single moment on any kind of negative thought. You must watch yourself for a whole week as a cat watches a mouse, and you must not under any pretense allow your mind to dwell on any thought that is not positive, constructive, optimistic, kind. This discipline will be so strenuous that you could not maintain it consciously for much more than a week, but I do not ask you to do so. A week will be enough, because by that time the habit of positive thinking will begin to be established. Some extraordinary changes for the better will have come into your life, encouraging you enormously, and then the future will take care of itself. The new way of life will be so attractive and so much easier than the old way that you will find your mentality aligning itself almost automatically.

But the seven days are going to be strenuous. I would not have you enter upon this without counting the cost. Mere physical fasting would be child's play in comparison, even if you have a very good appetite. The most exhausting form of army gymnastics, combined with thirty mile route marches, would be mild in comparison with this undertaking. But it is only for one week in your life, and it will definitely alter everything for the better. For the rest of your life here, for all eternity in fact, things will be utterly different and inconceivably better than if you had not carried through this undertaking.

Do not start it lightly. Think about it for a day or two before you begin. Then start in, and the grace of God go with you. You may start it any day in the week, and at any time in the day, first thing in the morning, or after breakfast, or after lunch, it does not matter, but once you do start you must go right through for the seven days. That is essential. The whole idea is to have seven days of-unbroken mental discipline in order to get the mind definitely bent in a new direction once and for all.

If you make a false start, or even if you go in well for two or three days and then for any reason "fall off" the diet, the thing to do is to drop the scheme altogether for several days, and then to start again afresh. There must be no jumping on and off, as it were. You remember that Rip Van Winkle in the play would take a solemn vow of teetotalism, and then promptly accept a drink from the first neighbor who offered him one, saying calmly: "I won't count this one." Well, on the seven day mental diet this sort of thing simply will not do. you must positively count every lapse, and whether you do or not, nature will. where there is a lapse you must go off the diet altogether and then start again.

Now, in order, if possible, to forestall difficulties, I will consider them in a little detail.

First of all, what do I mean by negative thinking? Well, a negative thought is any thought of failure, disappointment, or trouble; any thought of criticism, or spite, or jealousy, or condemnation of others, or self condemnation; any thought of sickness or accident; or, in short, any kind of limitation or pessimistic thinking. Any thought that is not positive and constructive in character, whether it concerns you yourself or anyone else, is a negative thought. Do not bother too much about the question of classification, however; in practice you will never have any trouble in knowing whether a given thought is positive or negative. Even if your brain tries to deceive you, your heart will whisper the truth.

Second, you must be quite clear that what this scheme calls for is that you shall not entertain, or dwell upon negative things. Note this carefully. It is not the thought that come to you that matter, but only such of them as you choose to entertain and dwell upon. It does not matter what thoughts may come to you provided you do not entertain them. It is the entertaining or dwelling upon them that matters. Of course, many negative thoughts will come to you all day long. Some of them will just drift into your mind of their own accord seemingly, and these come to you out of the race mind. Other negative thoughts will be given to you by other people, either in conversation or by their conduct, or you will hear disagreeable news perhaps by letter or telephone, or you will see crimes and disasters announced in the newspaper headings. These things, however, do not matter as long as you do not entertain them. In fact, it is these very things that provide the discipline that is going to transform you during this epoch making week. The thing to do is, directly the negative thought presents itself - turn it out. Turn away from the newspaper; turn out the thought of the unkind letter, or stupid remark, or what not. When the negative thought floats into your mind, immediately turn it out and think of something else. Best of all, think of God as explained in The Golden Key perfect analogy is furnished by the case of a man who is sitting by an open fire when a red hot cinder flies out and falls on his sleeve. If he knocks that cinder off at once, without a moment's delay to think about it, no harm is done. But if he allows it to rest on him for a single moment, under any pretense, the mischief is done, and it will be a troublesome task to repair that sleeve. So it is with a negative thought.

Now what of those negative thoughts and conditions which it is impossible to avoid at the point where you are today? What of the ordinary troubles that you will have to meet in the office or a home? The answer is, that such things will not affect your diet provided that you do not accept them, by fearing them, by believing them, by being indignant or sad about them, or by giving them any power at all. Any negative condition that duty compels you to handle will not affect your diet. Go to the office, or meet the cares at home, without allowing them to affect you. (None of these things move me) and all will be well. Suppose that you are lunching with a friend who talks negatively-Do not try to shut him up or otherwise snub him. Let him talk, but do not accept what he says, and your diet will not be affected. Suppose that on coming home you are greeted with a lot of negative conversation-do not preach a sermon, but simply do not accept it. It is your mental consent, remember, that constitutes your diet. Suppose you witness an accident or an act of injustice let us say Instead of reacting with pity or indignation, refuse to accept the appearance at its face value; do anything that you can to right matters, give it the right thought and let it go at that. You will still be on the diet.

Of course, it will be very helpful if you can take steps to avoid meeting during this week anyone who seems particularly likely to arouse the devil in you. People who get on your nerves, or rub you up the wrong way, or bore you, are better avoided while you are on the diet; but if it is not possible to avoid them, then you must take a little extra discipline that is all.

Suppose that you have a particularly trying ordeal before you next week Well, if you have enough spiritual understanding you will know how to meet that in the spiritual way; but, for our present purpose, I think I would wait and start the diet as soon as the ordeal is over. As I said before, do not take up the diet lightly, but think it over well first.

In closing, I want to tell you that people often find that the starting of this diet seems to stir up all sorts of difficulties. It seen is as though everything begins to go wrong at once. This may be disconcerting, but it is really a good sign. It means that things are moving; and is not that the very object we have in view? Suppose your whole world seems to rock on its foundations. Hold on steadily, let it rock, and when the rocking is over., the picture will have reassembled itself into something much nearer to your heart's desire.

The above point is vitally important and rather subtle. Do you not see that the very dwelling upon these difficulties is in itself a negative thought which has probably thrown you off the diet? The remedy is not, of course, to deny that your world is rocking in appearance, but to refuse to take the appearance for the reality (Judge not according to appearances but judge righteous judgment).

A closing word of caution-Do not tell anyone else that you are on the diet, or that you intend to go on it. Keep this tremendous project strictly to yourself. Remember that your soul should be the Secret Place of the Most High. When you have come through the seven days successfully, and secured your demonstration, allow a reasonable time to elapse to establish the new mentality, and then tell the story to anyone else who you think is likely to be helped by it.

And, finally, remember that nothing said or done by anyone else can possibly throw you off the diet. Only your own reaction to the other person's conduct can do that.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Eminem - Not Afraid

From the recovery album





(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Intro)

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

(Verse 1)

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud's still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Bridge)

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

(Verse 3)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle lonely
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Put a ??? and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Lovin' this song at the mo ..

The kids were watching Shrek .. and I heard the song I've loved for ages but couldn't remember where I'd heard it .. I only really like the John Cale version though .. the others don't quite seem right :-)





John Cale - Hallelujah

I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Your faith was strong, but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Baby I've been here before, I know this room
I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the Marble Arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
I remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Maybe there's a God above, all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who out drew you
And it's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Nana's funeral

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It's been over a week since my beautiful, strong and courageous Nana took her last breath .. it's so hard to believe she has gone and that I'll no longer be able to pop up and see her and nut out the world's news stories and goings on around the place ..and share what's happening around here.

I miss her soooo much ..

The service for her funeral was on Tuesday and was beautiful.. and I have a feeling she would have loved all her family and friends being all together and the way they all banded together in the end ..

I scanned a heap of photos and with Mum's help made up 2 photo boards .. one with B & W and the other colour and more recent photos ..

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We sang "How great thou art" first and then I read Psalm 23 ...

We had a Eulogy by my Mum's Uncle Albert .. he is 94 .. he is lovely and has such a great sense of humour .. then Mum's cousin Dean did a Eulogy and it was lovely.

Then we listened to Maria Elena by Jim Reeves- Pop sang the songs word for word .. just like he did when he sang to Nana just after she passed away .. talk about beautiful!





Maria Elena
You're the answer to a prayer
Maria Elena
Can't you see how much I care?
To me your voice is like the echo of a sigh
And when you're near my heart can't speak above a sigh


Maria Elena
Say that we will never part
Maria Elena
Take me to your heart
A love like mine is great enough for two
To share this love is really all I ask of you

.. and then we went and put flowers on her coffin and said out goodbyes..

Then we had tributes .. Rosie read a message from Pop .. then Lish stood up and read hers ..she was sooo brave and hardly wavered only towards the end..

This is what she said .. and all of it is soooo true ..

Nana A.

I have such wonderful memories of my Nana A.

When I was very little my sisters and I would go for a sleep over at Nanas where we were treated like royalty. We had all the baking we could eat, served up on TV trays in the lounge, even supper with a big mug of Milo! When we got thirsty, we got thick syrupy cordial cold from the fridge in purple plastic cups, that drink was so full of sugar, us kids loved it!

Bedtime we got a relaxing bath, we were allowed to play then Nana would come and give us a backwash and a fun game of tickle, I loved that.

Our beds were so luxurious, the electric blanket would be on and the sheets fresh and ironed making it so toasty, we almost needed to pole vault into the beds as they seemed so high to us littlies, then Nana would come and give us a kiss goodnight and tuck us in so tight we couldn’t move at all!!

Nana showed me once the little blue flowers that grew in her garden were in fact fairy’s toothbrushes, she plucked off the petals and it actually looked like a miniature toothbrush. I truly believed her and spent years pulling petals off flowers trying to find other fairy tooth brushes, but never found any, they must have only grown in Nanas magical garden!

Nana had all the best games and toys at her place, some of my favourites were: The happy families card game, the Russian dolls, pick up sticks and croquet.

I loved all the little things about Nana like the way she took so long to open a present carefully opening it so she could recycle the paper, She ironed everything from sheets, tea towels and even the wrapping paper so she could get the cello tape off!

We loved going shopping with her she always treated us to lunch at Farmers Co-op I liked to get a chicken stuffing sandwich and a cream horn! Yum.

There were the fun times like the time the mysterious chocolate bar was found on Nan and Pops back lawn, turned out it actually did fall off the back of a truck from the supermarket next door. The time Nanas grey hair got dyed bright orange like a punk rocker after she accidentally rubbed up against the lily pollen while she was gardening.

Also I loved the way Nana and Pop would wait outside their gate when we were leaving until they heard our car toot when we safely got through the “dangerous” Morley, Powderham street intersection. That was so sweet.

She was so clever with her handy hints always coming up with something I never knew, like the baking soda pot bottom cleaner and recently to cut an onion in half while painting to get rid off the smell. The hints were always really helpful! And No one could beat Nanas exquisite baking the cheese straws, jam sponge, jam cheesecakes or her homemade tomato relish and sauce. You would swear they were made in heaven!

As I grew older, I realized even more how amazing and special my Nana was. I never heard her say a bad word against anyone, she never judged, she always had positive lovely things to say. She was a joy to be around, she filled you up and made you happy, she had the most dazzling bright smile she made you feel so welcome and loved when she looked at you, you always left her house feeling fantastic.

Nana always had a clean orderly household. She enjoyed helping others, she cooked and cleaned for her elderly sick neighbours Miss Freathey and then Miss Bain and helped out Mr Christensen if needed, even though she was often not well herself. She was also a good neighbour to Mr and Mrs Old for years.

If you mentioned you needed something for your home or baby, she would scour the shops searching until she found the perfect item for you. She had so much love and care to give and gave it willingly. Everyone that was touched by her in their lives was enriched. I respect her for her unselfish kindness to others.

Nana I feel so privileged to have been your Granddaughter and been a part of your life, to have tasted your ambrosia and felt your unconditional love. I will miss you so much. I am so sad that my unborn baby will not get to meet you in this life. I will be telling him or her all about what a special beautiful person you were. I will never forget you or stop loving you.

Goodbye Nana.

After a few words from the Chaplain she was then led out of the church by Dad, Uncle Alan, Uncle Les, Peter, Phillip and Leslie.

The song "I love you because .." played as they went out ..





We then had cuppa .. and it was lovely as I got a photo of Pop and I - I have NO photos of him and I .. I was thrilled ...

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..We then went out to the Chapel and held a service before her cremation.

At the end we let go of Mauve balloons.