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Monday, January 24, 2011

My 40th birthday

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Hotcakes with bacon, banana and maple syrup for breakfast ... yummm!!!

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The beautiful cake mum decorated (fruit cake)

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Me with the cake ... Mum and I

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Me, Mum and my beautiful sister

(you can't tell she had a baby just 8 weeks ago can you ???)

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The cake the kids decorated (banana cake)

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Afternoon tea with the kids and hubby

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Milkshakes and me blowing out the candles on the cake

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The kids having a turn to blow out the candles

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Mike cutting the cake

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Miss with 'her' lollies

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The beautiful 40th frame with my favourite baby picture of me in it and all of the beautiful gifts from my Mum and Dad

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My cards and present from the kids and hubby - a Kobo E-Reader ... wahoooooooo!!!

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The beautiful cards the boys hand-made with help from J during the holidays and kept a secret .. and the Kobo E-Reader .

.. more info here about it: http://www.whitcoulls.co.nz/ereader

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All the cards lined up ..

..then J came around for a drink and brought ANOTHER birthday cake.. this time a chocolate cake .. covered in lollies just for the kids to eat .. holy smoke!!!

We were going out for dinner but with all this rain we gave it a miss .. so are heading out tomorrow night :-)

A lovely day .. totally spoilt and made to feel special .. lots of lovely phone calls ... and messages :-)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

More interesting stuff ..

Ten Steps to Self-Confidence
By Stacey Chillemi

Self-confidence is like being rich - it is something we think everyone else is but us. Yet feeling insecure about ourselves is perhaps the most common problem we face. 

“Self-confidence is like being rich - it is something we think everyone else is but us. Yet feeling insecure about ourselves is perhaps the most common problem we face.”
 
Self-confidence-like being rich - it is something we think everyone else is but us. Yet feeling insecure about ourselves is perhaps the most common problems of humanity. The majority of people in society think, "You have to be born with it." This is not true. You can learn how to be confident, just like learning how to cook or drive a car.

Self-confidence all boils down to how we feel about ourselves. Our self-confidence begins to develop from the moment we are born. Many components affect the development of our self-esteem, for example - how we are raised, how people talk to us and things we experience during our lifetime. Many of us tend to judge how well we our doing in life by what society thinks it is right or what the people who center our life think.

We all have standards and expectations that we all tend to try to live up too. If we do not meet up to our standards, which most of us do not, our self-confidence begins to slowly decline. Many of us try to have unrealistic standards that we try to live up too and we tend to lose sight of the fact that we cannot be perfect.

We need to accept ourselves, love ourselves and be happy with who we are as people. We were valued for just being people, for just being in this world. We often believe we must continually try to prove to other people that we are worthy of them or on the same level as them. We often spend too much time doing that and we lose sight of the fact that we are fine just the way we are and that the only person that needs to be happy with them is themselves even though we are not perfect people.

In order to gain self-confidence you need to believe in yourself. If you believe in yourself then you can succeed in anything you put your mind to. You may not succeed the first time you try, but you have to keep trying until you do succeed. Quick success does not exist in our society. Achievements only come to those who strive hard to get them. You get nowhere in life if you do not push yourself. You need to create a lifestyle that is right for you and nobody else. Do not settle for anyone else's lifestyle or for a lifestyle that is beneath your standards.



 
My "10 step plan" to increasing confidence:
 
 
1.        Begin a journal. Ask yourself what is making you feel like you cannot get to the point in life you want to reach. Write any thoughts that come to mine. Also, write down what self-confidence means to you.
 
 
2.        Remember the past is over; you can only change the future.
Write down 10 positive things about yourself. Go through your journal and look at all the positive things about yourself. Concentrate on your strengths. These are the reasons you should love yourself and have high self-esteem and self-confidence in yourself. Give yourself credit for everything positive you have written about yourself. Remember, you are somebody special.
 
3.        Accept yourself and learn to love yourself for whom you are a person.Everyone has his or her own unique qualities and characteristics. We are all born differently for a reason. Do not compare yourself to others.
 
4.        Understand yourself mentally, physically and spiritually.
 
  • Take some time to relax by yourself in a quiet room...
  • Rest on your back with head and neck comfortably supported.
  • Rest hands on upper abdomen, close your eyes and settle in a comfortable position.
  • Breathe slowly, deeply and rhythmically.
  • Inhalation should be slow, unforced and unhurried.
  • Silently count to four, five or six, whatever feels right for you.
  • When inhalation is complete, slowly inhale through the nose. Count this breathing out, as when breathing in.
  • The exhalation should take as long as the inhalation. There should be no sense of strain. If initially, you feel you have breathed your fullest at a count of three, which is all right.
  • Try gradually to slow down the rhythm until a slow count of five or six is possible, with a pause of two or three between in and out breathing.
5.        Be ready. Self-confidence comes a lot easier to the person who is sure their ready.
 
6.        Strengthen your inner self. Write down in your journal what you will be able to do once you acquire the confidence you need.
 
7.        Begin changing what you do not like about yourself. Confidence comes from within. You need to concentrate on the positive things about yourself.
 
8.        Notice the change in our self-esteem and self-confidence. Reward yourself each time you do something that makes you feel proud...go out some place or take it easy for the day.
 
9.        Learn how to give and take. Confidence is being able to find a balance between giving help to people and excepting when we need help.
 
10.      Have a tremendous amount of pride in yourself. Remember, you are number one!

Interesting concept ..

The Seven Day Mental Diet
How to change your life (and the world) in a week

by Emmet Fox

The subject of diet is one of the foremost topics of the present day in public interest. Newspapers and magazines teem with articles on the subject. The counters of the bookshops are filled with volumes unfolding the mysteries of proteins, starches, vitamins, and so forth. just now the whole world is food-conscious. Experts on the subject are saying that physically you become the thing that you eat that your whole body is really composed of the food that you have eaten in the past. What you eat today, they say, will be in your bloodstream after the lapse of so many hours, and it is your blood-stream that builds all the tissues composing your body -and there you are.

Of course, no sensible person has any quarrel with all this. It is perfectly true, as far as it goes, and the only surprising thing is that it has taken the world so long to find it out; but in this pamphlet I am going to deal with the subject of dieting at a level that is infinitely more profound and far reaching in its effects. I refer of course to mental dieting.

The most important of all factors in your life is the mental diet on which you live. It is the food which you furnish to your mind that determines the whole character of your life. It is the thoughts you allow yourself to think, the subjects that you allow your mind to dwell upon, which make you and your surroundings what they are. As they days, so shall they strength be. Everything in your life today the state of your body, whether healthy or sick, the state of your fortune, whether prosperous or impoverished, the state of your home, whether happy or the reverse, the present condition of every phase of your life in fact-is entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which you have entertained in the past, by the habitual tone of your past thinking. And the condition of your life tomorrow, and next week, and next year, will be entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which you choose to entertain from now onwards.

In other words, you choose your life, that is to say, you choose all the conditions of your life, when you choose the thoughts upon which you allow your mind to dwell. Thought is the real causative force in life, and there is no other. You cannot have one kind of mind and another kind of environment. This means that you cannot change your environment while leaving your mind unchanged, nor-and this is the supreme key to life and the reason for this pamphlet -can you change your mind without your environment changing too.

This then is the real key to life: if you change your mind your conditions must change too- your body must change, your daily work or other activities must change; your home must change; the color-tone of your whole life must change-for whether you be habitually happy and cheerful, or low-spirited and fearful, depends entirely on the quality of the mental food upon which you diet yourself.

Please be very clear about this. If you change your mind your conditions must change too. We are transformed by the renewing of our minds. So now you will see that your mental diet is really the most important thing in your whole life.

This may be called the Great Cosmic Law, and its truth is seen to be perfectly obvious when once it is clearly stated in this way. In fact, I do not know of any thoughtful person who denies its essential truth. The practical difficulty in applying it, however, arises from the fact that our thoughts are so close to us that it is difficult, without a little practice, to stand back as it were and look at them objectively.

Yet that is just what you must learn to do. You must train yourself to choose the subject of your thinking at any given time, and also to choose the emotional tone, or what we call the mood that colors it. Yes, you can choose your moods. Indeed, if you could not you would have no real control over your life at all. Moods habitually entertained produce the characteristic disposition of the person concerned, and it is his disposition that finally makes or mars a person's happiness.

You cannot be healthy; you cannot be happy; you cannot be prosperous; if you have a bad disposition. If you are sulky, or surly, or cynical, or depressed, or superior, or frightened half out of your wits, your life cannot possibly be worth living. Unless you are determined to cultivate a good disposition, you may as well give up all hope of getting anything worth while out of life, and it is kinder to tell you very plainly that this is the case.

If you are not determined to start in now and carefully select all day the kind of thoughts that you are going to think, you may as well give up all hope of shaping your life into the kind of thing that you want it to be, because this is the only way.

In short, if you want to make your life happy and worth while, which is what God wishes you to make it, you must begin immediately to train yourself in the habit of thought selection and thought control. This will be exceedingly difficult for the first few days, but if you persevere you will find that it will become rapidly easier, and it is actually the most interesting experiment that you could possibly make. In fact, this thought control is the most thrillingly interesting hobby that anyone could take up. You will be amazed at the interesting things that you will learn about yourself, and you will get results almost from the beginning.

Now many people knowing this truth, make sporadic efforts from time to time to control their thoughts, but the thought stream being so close) as I have pointed outs and the impacts from outside so constant and varied, they do not make very much progress. That is not the way to work. Your only chance is definitely to form a new habit of thought which will carry you through when you are preoccupied or off your guard as well as when you are consciously attending to the business. This new thought habit must be definitely acquired, and the foundation of it can be laid within a few days, and the way to do it is this: Make up your mind to devote one week solely to the task of building a new habit of thought, and during that week let everything in life be unimportant as compared with that. If you will do so, then that week will be the most significant week in your whole life. It will literally be the turning point for you. If you will do so, it is safe to say that your whole life will change for the better. In fact, nothing can possibly remain the same. This does not simply mean that you will be able to face your present difficulties in a better spirit; it means that the difficulties will go. This is the scientific way to Alter Your Life, and being in accordance with the Great Law it cannot fail. Now do you realize that by working in this way you do not have to change conditions? What happens is that you apply the Law, and then the conditions change spontaneously. You cannot change conditions directly you have often tried to do so and failed but go on the seven day mental diet and conditions must change for you.

This then is your prescription. For seven days you must not allow yourself to dwell for a single moment on any kind of negative thought. You must watch yourself for a whole week as a cat watches a mouse, and you must not under any pretense allow your mind to dwell on any thought that is not positive, constructive, optimistic, kind. This discipline will be so strenuous that you could not maintain it consciously for much more than a week, but I do not ask you to do so. A week will be enough, because by that time the habit of positive thinking will begin to be established. Some extraordinary changes for the better will have come into your life, encouraging you enormously, and then the future will take care of itself. The new way of life will be so attractive and so much easier than the old way that you will find your mentality aligning itself almost automatically.

But the seven days are going to be strenuous. I would not have you enter upon this without counting the cost. Mere physical fasting would be child's play in comparison, even if you have a very good appetite. The most exhausting form of army gymnastics, combined with thirty mile route marches, would be mild in comparison with this undertaking. But it is only for one week in your life, and it will definitely alter everything for the better. For the rest of your life here, for all eternity in fact, things will be utterly different and inconceivably better than if you had not carried through this undertaking.

Do not start it lightly. Think about it for a day or two before you begin. Then start in, and the grace of God go with you. You may start it any day in the week, and at any time in the day, first thing in the morning, or after breakfast, or after lunch, it does not matter, but once you do start you must go right through for the seven days. That is essential. The whole idea is to have seven days of-unbroken mental discipline in order to get the mind definitely bent in a new direction once and for all.

If you make a false start, or even if you go in well for two or three days and then for any reason "fall off" the diet, the thing to do is to drop the scheme altogether for several days, and then to start again afresh. There must be no jumping on and off, as it were. You remember that Rip Van Winkle in the play would take a solemn vow of teetotalism, and then promptly accept a drink from the first neighbor who offered him one, saying calmly: "I won't count this one." Well, on the seven day mental diet this sort of thing simply will not do. you must positively count every lapse, and whether you do or not, nature will. where there is a lapse you must go off the diet altogether and then start again.

Now, in order, if possible, to forestall difficulties, I will consider them in a little detail.

First of all, what do I mean by negative thinking? Well, a negative thought is any thought of failure, disappointment, or trouble; any thought of criticism, or spite, or jealousy, or condemnation of others, or self condemnation; any thought of sickness or accident; or, in short, any kind of limitation or pessimistic thinking. Any thought that is not positive and constructive in character, whether it concerns you yourself or anyone else, is a negative thought. Do not bother too much about the question of classification, however; in practice you will never have any trouble in knowing whether a given thought is positive or negative. Even if your brain tries to deceive you, your heart will whisper the truth.

Second, you must be quite clear that what this scheme calls for is that you shall not entertain, or dwell upon negative things. Note this carefully. It is not the thought that come to you that matter, but only such of them as you choose to entertain and dwell upon. It does not matter what thoughts may come to you provided you do not entertain them. It is the entertaining or dwelling upon them that matters. Of course, many negative thoughts will come to you all day long. Some of them will just drift into your mind of their own accord seemingly, and these come to you out of the race mind. Other negative thoughts will be given to you by other people, either in conversation or by their conduct, or you will hear disagreeable news perhaps by letter or telephone, or you will see crimes and disasters announced in the newspaper headings. These things, however, do not matter as long as you do not entertain them. In fact, it is these very things that provide the discipline that is going to transform you during this epoch making week. The thing to do is, directly the negative thought presents itself - turn it out. Turn away from the newspaper; turn out the thought of the unkind letter, or stupid remark, or what not. When the negative thought floats into your mind, immediately turn it out and think of something else. Best of all, think of God as explained in The Golden Key perfect analogy is furnished by the case of a man who is sitting by an open fire when a red hot cinder flies out and falls on his sleeve. If he knocks that cinder off at once, without a moment's delay to think about it, no harm is done. But if he allows it to rest on him for a single moment, under any pretense, the mischief is done, and it will be a troublesome task to repair that sleeve. So it is with a negative thought.

Now what of those negative thoughts and conditions which it is impossible to avoid at the point where you are today? What of the ordinary troubles that you will have to meet in the office or a home? The answer is, that such things will not affect your diet provided that you do not accept them, by fearing them, by believing them, by being indignant or sad about them, or by giving them any power at all. Any negative condition that duty compels you to handle will not affect your diet. Go to the office, or meet the cares at home, without allowing them to affect you. (None of these things move me) and all will be well. Suppose that you are lunching with a friend who talks negatively-Do not try to shut him up or otherwise snub him. Let him talk, but do not accept what he says, and your diet will not be affected. Suppose that on coming home you are greeted with a lot of negative conversation-do not preach a sermon, but simply do not accept it. It is your mental consent, remember, that constitutes your diet. Suppose you witness an accident or an act of injustice let us say Instead of reacting with pity or indignation, refuse to accept the appearance at its face value; do anything that you can to right matters, give it the right thought and let it go at that. You will still be on the diet.

Of course, it will be very helpful if you can take steps to avoid meeting during this week anyone who seems particularly likely to arouse the devil in you. People who get on your nerves, or rub you up the wrong way, or bore you, are better avoided while you are on the diet; but if it is not possible to avoid them, then you must take a little extra discipline that is all.

Suppose that you have a particularly trying ordeal before you next week Well, if you have enough spiritual understanding you will know how to meet that in the spiritual way; but, for our present purpose, I think I would wait and start the diet as soon as the ordeal is over. As I said before, do not take up the diet lightly, but think it over well first.

In closing, I want to tell you that people often find that the starting of this diet seems to stir up all sorts of difficulties. It seen is as though everything begins to go wrong at once. This may be disconcerting, but it is really a good sign. It means that things are moving; and is not that the very object we have in view? Suppose your whole world seems to rock on its foundations. Hold on steadily, let it rock, and when the rocking is over., the picture will have reassembled itself into something much nearer to your heart's desire.

The above point is vitally important and rather subtle. Do you not see that the very dwelling upon these difficulties is in itself a negative thought which has probably thrown you off the diet? The remedy is not, of course, to deny that your world is rocking in appearance, but to refuse to take the appearance for the reality (Judge not according to appearances but judge righteous judgment).

A closing word of caution-Do not tell anyone else that you are on the diet, or that you intend to go on it. Keep this tremendous project strictly to yourself. Remember that your soul should be the Secret Place of the Most High. When you have come through the seven days successfully, and secured your demonstration, allow a reasonable time to elapse to establish the new mentality, and then tell the story to anyone else who you think is likely to be helped by it.

And, finally, remember that nothing said or done by anyone else can possibly throw you off the diet. Only your own reaction to the other person's conduct can do that.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Depressed much .. or just down ????

Here comes huge RANT!

OK I'm not doing well !!

Since Nana passed away in the middle of March it has steadily got worse ..

I got sick with that "virus" but I think that it's a culmination of everything that is going on .. I had blood tests to rule out "medical"stuff but they came back clear enough ..

The doc asked if I was stressed .. or depressed .. well there is so much going on that's depressive and stressful .. how could you not react .. but the reaction is getting out of control ..

I feel out of control ... spiralling towards a huge meltdown .. not a yelling and hitting and thrashing toddler tantrum .. more a go numb ..not react .. try not to feel kind of thing ..

Nana has got a lot worse .. she came out of hospital over a month ago now .. and was on oxygen occasionally .. she developed pulmonary edema over a week ago .. and was on ab's and during this time was on oxygen .. which was bumped up to 4litres .. this week she was kinda ok-ish on Friday .. not great .. tired but talking etc .. on Sunday when I visited after the HC event .. she was not talking hardly at all .. and seemed distracted .. that night she was suffering from chest pains most of the night and only told my aunty when she heard them up .. they called the doctor immediately and he has said there is more fluid on her lungs and has increased her morphine and she now has nasal medazalon .. and she is quite frightened to be left alone .. and so my Aunty is sleeping in the room with her. Mum was saying my aunty would wake up and it sounded like nana was up most of the night awake.

My Grandad is still hanging in there .. at the grand old age of 94 .. but is quite depressed .. he is in the hospital wing and although he is getting on in age .. his mind is quite active.. but it is body that has given out .. so he is amongst all the "ill" patients who have their heads lolling around all day .. or sleep all day .. and it's not doing the best for his mental health.

My good friend's daughter whose daughter has leukamia (and while being neutropenic contracted an infection in her lungs that travelled through her blood to her brain causing irrepairable damage to her brain) has now been told she is terminal and is now spending every day treasuring what little time she has left.

Cam is doing OK-ish at the moment .. he has his days .. and is mostly puffy when he wakes up .. but this seems to reduce during the day .. however his behaviour his gone to the dogs .. and so we feel something is definitely going on as he is sooo tired and the shadows under his eyes are getting darker and darker .. I just wish someone would get the liver and kidney scans sorted soon !! The "nagging" worry that isn't full on but is always there is getting me down ..

Stuff with C and I are "fair to midling" to say the least .. I just don't feel understood .. and if I mention depression .. it's a throw your hands up in the air kind result .. so I just can't be bothered .. but then of course it's nag nag about the lack of amorous action .. wtf!!!

The house is swallowing me up with all the "work" to be done .. the washing piling up .. the ongoing "kiddy" mess .. and the wardrobes spilling over out of the doors ..

C also is trying to get things sorted with the farms/pil retirement etc ..to give us some direction and this is good in the long term .. but in the meantime it's friggin stressful .. and with all that's going on with the farm this time of year the "breaking" point of his patience comes along quick.

My walking is going to the pack with all this yuck weather and with the way I'm feeling I just don't have the inclination to do any exercise on the "white elephant" treadmill sitting in the lounge taunting me every time I'm in there .. so of course the weight is piling back on again ... and like a couple of years ago it's a cycle that gets me down .. I eat because I'm down .. and then get down because of the weight gain .. and lack of discipline .. and so what do I do .. eat .. arrghh!

A is not settling at kindy very well .. she has a melt down each time Ieave .. (but apparently is fine when I leave) ..but that tears at your heart .. then this morning I rang to say she was sick .. and the comment was "it'll be interesting how she is on thursday huh?".. I mean why the fark even say it .. we al know and are thinking it but why verbalise it .. She looks so lost when I go to pick her up ..

M's behaviour is very confrontational .. and his lack of respect is really getting me down .. I've done the parenting course .. read the book.. but still are getting no-where .. and then when yell to get things done .. the guilt starts and the vicious cycle starts all over again .. where's supernanny when you need her?

It's HC awareness week and the lack of support (both from the other committee members & the local media) has been really disappointing .. a few people turned up to the family fun day .. but after the amount of work IW did and the cost to get it all together it gets you down when people don't make the effort to come along .. but in saying that the people who did come had a fantastic time!

The positive to this week is that the girls dinner is happening this Friday .. something to look forward to at the end of each month ..phew for that .. but the frowns from C before I get there .. sure puts a downer on it ..

I wish the slate could be wiped clean ..start again afresh .. instead of the dark cloud hanging over all day ..every day .. so tiring .. and the friggin dark clouds outside don't help either ..

What happened to the "looked forward to" visions when I would so look forward to the kids getting up so I could spend time with them .. be a mum to them ..

Urrghhhhhhhh!

Maybe I need to go to work .. but finding a job in this small town is so hard .. and  I would so miss my little princess .. and what if ..

I need a job that I can work at home .. but how much stimulation would that be ..

Arrgghhhhh!

I'm thinking I need to go back to see someone .. but I'm quickly discharged because I'm not "bad" enough .. but it's ongoing .. and we still haven't found the right AD that helps as with all that we have tried I end up like a hamster on a wheel .. and of course it's the first thing the doc prescribes when I mention that I'm down.

I'm at a loss as to what the heck to do !

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Black dogs ..

I'm thinking the black dogs might be bounding away .. things are looking up ... *fingers crossed*

..it's coming up 3 weeks now .. and I was still down .. and over eating .. not feeling like exercise ..

Soooo

..it was about time I did something about it ... hopefully what I'm doing about it will help ..

..an CBT online course for depression .. MoodGym

Sometimes it's hard to distinguish between "real" grief and depression huh??

Between depression and a few different things also I suppose?.

..We'll see how it goes ..

4kgs .. weight gain is soooo sad !

Monday, February 22, 2010

What's happening at our place #2

It's baking day ..

OK if I'm honest it's baking day for the first time in 3 months !!!!

..but .. who's really taking notice .. lol

.. so ..

.. there's scone making

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.. lollie log making

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.. sausage roll making

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.. and cupcake making and decorating

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.. and trialling ;-p

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.. the end results ..

.. completely decorated by the kidlets ..

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..  and some banana cake making .. (just imagine a yum choc covered cake here with "swinkles") .. kinda flattish .. coz I was getting a bit over it by now ..

.. and

.. yep I do let them loose on the "baking" thing ..

.. they each help me make one thing ..so there isn't any quibbling (yeh right) ..

.. well we aim to do that .. so each time there's 3 things made ..

.. and one on my own .. lol ..

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Nana - part 2

.. so I visited Nana this afternoon .. she is looking a lot brighter .. still has the nasa-gastra tube and on saline and glucose IV to get her dehydration sorted ..

The specialists and doctors talked to my Mum and my Aunty this morning .. the news was 1/2 good and 1/2 not ..

.. they said that the results show that her hernia near where the colostomy site is had enlarged and was protruding through the colon and that had caused the colon to double up and twist .. causing the obstruction .. and then with the compaction it had blown her tummy up and pushed all the other organs up (sort of like when you're pregnant) and that was also causing her breathing issues .. so the next step is that they are looking at maybe doing surgery to rectify/help the hernia situation

.. so that's the good part .. well good compared to the other ..

.. the bad part is that they have found a tumor on her lungs (weird considering it wasn't here just a little while ago) .. but with her emphysema and enlarged heart and position of the tumor they feel that surgery etc may not be the best form of action ..

.. she seems quite calm about it and said to me "I've got the C in my lungs .. but what can you do really ...?" and shrugged her shoulders ..

.. she is still quite frail .. and seemed so little in the hospital chair .. but 85 year olds probably do look like that .. she just always seems so invincible and always bounces back!! 

.. but I can see that a lot of it is wearing her down .. and she looks more and more thinner each time I see her .. :-(

Anyway .. we will see what the doctors say on Monday as they are having a think about the lung situation .. and I wonder whether she will go home on oxygen again .. mmmmm ..

Saturday, February 6, 2010

What's happening at our place # 1

Soooo .. I have nothing to blog

.. so I'll do a bit of sharing and hiding my head to how bad my house cleaning has got ..

.. Miss did a bit of baby sitting .. and swinging ..

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Cam decided a swim was the order of the day ..

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Mike decided he was cleaning out the book shelf and his room and everywhere else he could find books .. and then putting them in piles .. and then trying to cram them all back in to the shelves

.. apparently I'm doing the last part "with him" .. read .. I'm doing the last part ..

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.. oh and he's also making his bed .. and hanging out the washing for me ... :-)

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Miss is walking her bike .. and singing to herself .. and the flowers ..

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.. I'm weeding ..

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Miss is swinging ..

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Mike is still struggling with the books ..

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Miss is still swinging but now without her gumboots on

.. thank goodness .. coz it is seriously hot .. and why the heck would you wear gumboots when bare-feet is soooo much cooler ?????

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I'm mowing the lawns .. vacuuming ..

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.. trying to find my floor under all that washing to fold ..

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.. looking at the boys room .. shaking my head

.. but walking away as it's their attempt to make their beds and clean up ..

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.. Miss decided to "unpack" all her baby stuff .. WTF!!!!

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.. and rumble through the DVD's and videos ..

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.. I tidied the lounge .. and found the floor .. hah

.. but the washing still stayed there and became Mt Wash-a-lot .. Mt Washmore .. and Mt-Fall-on-the-floor-coz-there-is-just-so-much

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.. then caught some of the sunset ..

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... oh and how could I forget the boys devising and then writing out the rules for their new hut .. now on a big piece of "water-proof" card-board .. with about 2 rolls of sello-tape over it so the felt-tip pen doesn't run in the rain !!!!!!!!!!!!!

1. You have to run around the house 2 times ..

2.You have to run down the drive-way and back ..

3. You have to pay us $1 and we give you $2 back ..

(I said to them that they might be losing money on that.. but they disagreed - but later came back and changed it to the other way around)

Boys are allowed ..

Girls are allowed ..

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.. and on the BAD front ..

Cam decided to wake up puffy .. and with a bit of a black eye from tripping and finding the coffee table - YOUUUCH!!!

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.. he was very brave .. (but understandably howled his head off when it happened) .. and was lucky to miss his eye .. and it finally went down after a couple of days

.. the thing he was "sad" about was not being able to wear his goggles swimming .. but he found some in the play-room that were quite wide .. and missing out on finishing the "duck dance" with his sister .. but now he's happy :-)